There are so many things you are ignorant of my love.
Do you now why my heart beats faster at the sight of you?
Do you know why we feel so warm when we sit up close.
Remember the first time I kissed you on the street
And you raised up one of your feet.
Do you know why?
Vein of Love
Did you know
Why you hold my hand when we cross the road?
Do you know why you look for me when you don't see me?
Do you know why you don't like to see me holding other babes?
Do you know why I am still single?
Hi! How are you?
ReplyDeleteAnd why are you still single? :P
Thanks for this special poem. I am honored that my blog post inspired you to write this wonderful poem.
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April girl,
ReplyDeleteLong time since we communicated.
I am still single, because I lost someone I loved to an illness. And she was like half of me.
Since 1995 to date. I have met and dated over 22 others, but none of them has the passion for charity as Nikky.
My life is totally devoted to Charity and if you cannot devote your life to my life work in partnership with me, I cannot marry that person.
Jesus Christ said you must give up all other things and follow Him. And the burden of True Christianity is Charity.
Most women want to marry for selfish reasons and egos.
Either for the security of a man or for children. Others for social reasons.
I will only marry for Charity.
I once lived with one who refused to obey God with me and I told her to go.
I said we must stop having sex till after our wedding and she couldn't endure with me. This was on the 1st of January 1999.
We met in October 1998 and we were like acting Michael Douglas and Sharon Stone in "Basic Instinct" from October to December 31, 1998. I obliged to make her happy. But, my pastors knew and warned me to stop sleeping with her in obedience to God. And I agreed. But she refused. So, I told her to go. And since January 1, 1999 to date, I have not had any other relationship in obedience to God to avoid fornication. How I have done it?
I flee from all appearances of evil and I avoid temptations. Ladies visited and I visited ladies till last December. But it is strictly platonic.
I have to let God guide me this time and not my libido.
I live in retreat now like a monk on an Island and I don't visit or date as at present. I don't invite any lady.
Blogging is my sublimation. And it is helping me to be keep me safe since 99% of girls and ladies in Nigeria don't even know what is blogging. One very beautiful lady came to browze for over six hours yesterday and she was hearing of blogging for the very first time and I created a blog for her yesterday and I left for my bedroom without seeing her again until she left this morning. I noticed that we were becoming interested in each other and she is what we call an African blonde. Tall, fair, well shaped and stunning like any sex symbol in Hollywood. But, she is married. So, I politely left her with the computer.
Girls and women find me very sexually attractive and seductive and it is not my fault. I did not create myself.
My only weakness is beauty. And I love making love. To tell me to avoid sex and I obey is a great feat for me. To avoid sex for six years now has been made possible by the will of God and not my will. Because, if not for the fear of God I would be practicing free love at random. There are too many loney women in the world and I think it is not fair for women to be lonely without any man loving them.
My friends even said I must have a spirit of seduction. But, I am only charismatic and enigmatic.
I left the neighbourhood where I was living, because people complained of the scores of young female groupies and married women coming to see me in my friend's art gallery and studio. There was one stubborn 17 years old whose parents even approved her visits. But, the safest way was to leave town. They cannot reach me here. Because it is 12 hours away by road and you have to cross the sea with boats or ferries and the safest ferry can only carry authorized passengers with the permission of the residents. So, I have not permitted any of them to come and visit me. And since I came here, I avoid outdoor activities except going to church and christian concerts. I don't date or visit any female. And whenever anyone of them visit, I try to keep the interaction platonic.
Okay April?
thanks for comment in my blog. What beautiful poems you got here! Who said blogspot is hell of shitty spam?! They are so to blind to see bloggers like you!Keep up good stuff coming,man!
ReplyDeletemy friend,don't know why you isolate yourself from all the sex and love on earth? God only want you to be happy, cause only a happy heart can make another happy heart. Too much burden and guilt-sense isn't necessary to help you carry out good faith, cause when you feel pressure and depressure ,people around you feel that too and will be brought down somehow. Come out and give good sex to those beautiful women, cause you make one woman happy, you can make 10 people around that woman happy just as much as you carry out sex in a positive of generateing happiness and health. life is too short and too heavy already,don't make it harder to yourself and in the meantime to anyone else.Enjoy it yourself and help everyone else enjoy it as well. I think that's the biggest charity on earth!
ReplyDeleteAbstinence? I believe what you're doing is great (for lack of a better term), requires a strong will which would naturally come when you have firm belief in your religious teachings.
ReplyDeleteI am sure that one day you will find that soul and then physical intimacy will once again be pure and magical.
However I do not think you should isolate yourself or limit yourself to the things that can be done in this world.
There are so many things out there.
And trust me, you shouldn't be afraid with your interaction with women. It is possible to have platonic relationships, all you got to do is know where you have set your limits. And well, not go beyond them.
I do wish you the best of luck in whatever it is you're doing. Put your trust in God and believe that He wants what is best for you and so with His guidance you will lead the best possible life!
Take care!
And keep up the charity! It's beautiful what you're doing. Don't ever give it up for anybody.
The world needs more souls like yours.
Have a gorgeous day!
Id.Ology,
ReplyDeleteThanks.
Everybody has a weakness and my own is having a soft spot for women.
But when one of my best friends locked his wife and I in their bedroom and insisted that I must sleep with her, because he thought his wife wanted me to sleep with her. Then, people started calling my residence a lovers hangout and others called me "lion". Those statements were not complimentary for a visible Christian who was preaching in the open all over the city for 11 years. So, I closed down my modelling agency to keep a safe distance from the beautiful women. But, the reputation couldn't be erased. If you start something you cannot stop, you will end up in the pit of it. As they say Power without Control is no longer power. Because, whatever you cannot control will control you.
My father was a playboy and I don't want to follow his footsteps.